I miss vlogging, I miss blogging. I miss too many things.
Hi,
For those that follow me on other social networks and have been asking me ‘ what happened to my weekly vlogs ? here is my super duper understandable explanation ‘ Firstly to be honest with life’s happenings and stress I lost my mojo to record myself and my little family. I was at a space were I felt like nothing was going right or working for me. Eventually when I felt like I was ready to start vlogging again, my camera decides to break, great yaaaas. Until I get a new camera Im trying to blog more often. Moving on, I feel like 2016 is just being some type of unknown fuckery. I constantly keep reminding myself that life is made of ups & downs and before a rainbow theres plenty of shitty shit storms. March, 9 marks the day I moved out of my beautiful flat in Essex ( I live in London but moved to Essex out of desperation and rent prices). The flat I was living in was literally everything I could possibly need in a house but just in the wrong location. I had a pretty house, my rent was cheap but I was paying absurd prices for transport, I was slightly far from family and friends meaning no one would visit me, I couldn’t have random coffee dates and life just needed to be planned all the damn time. So imagine if my partner isn’t around I could never simply pop out of the house, I couldn’t have last mins date nights and so on, this is all because there would be no one to stay with Romeo (my son). Whereas in London last of my worries is someone to babysit little Ro. Not to forget me and my partner obviously have our ups and downs. Were like when were good were real good but when were bad its hell on earth. I guess our relationship major definition is ‘ young adults ’ its not easy the transition of teens to adults, its not easy being young parents and its definitely not easy going from only caring about yourself to caring about your family, always thinking as three. We learn as we grow & whats meant to be will be.
So even though the tittle of this post says fresh start, I currently feel that my life is an absolute mess. I moved back to my mums house, I decided to stay at my mums for a while to get myself together, to be able to focus on finding a part time job, attending gym regularly and bloody doing my driving license and in the meantime, slowly I will look for another two bedroom house/flat which is convenient for me in price/location, no pressure no rush as my next home hopefully will be the one i,ll be settling in for a few years. I mean moving is not easy and it feels like Im constantly on the move, so I guess after all is a fresh start new goals, new motivation & new home.
J x
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